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Seriously is it Necessary!!

December 27, 2007 / by mysecretidentity

Ok so I was just talking to my bestest friend in the world I will call her J-LO ya i know its taken but hey it my blog I'll call her what i want..anyway.. I was just talking to her about a dream I had last night about my ex whom I will call The Drinker.. Most likely I will not talk about him to much but since I had the dream maybe a background story will help.. I met him at a wedding I was maid of honor he was best man. the stuff dreams are made of. I knew when I saw him I wanted to him but I didnt know I would get him and his alcoholism and abusiveness. I rushed into a relationship moving back home to be with him shortly realizing that time with my friends and family slowly getting non existant.. let me say one thing not to justify just to say.. when he wasnt drinking he was the greatest man I ever met. but he drank alot.. every day..almost.. he never got violent with Gamer just me. No one knew except one friend whom I would not listen to.. Maybe I thought i could change him I dont know.. anyway after a few years yes i know years. it got bad enough I couldnt do it anymore and we split up. not easy. well during the process of splitting up he moved to his mothers and he showed up drunk at our place (luckily Gamer was out of town) and I wouldnt let him in.. well I agreed to take him to his mothers.. dumb idea #1 (for this night) then I stopped to get gas, as i pumped gas he went in to get a beer I asked him why dumb idea #2 he proceeded to call me names screaming at me.. instead of making him get out I said if he would be quite id still take him to his mothers.. well he agreed but told me to go the back way dumb idea #3.. the back way was a residential neighborhood that is very quiet.. without going into much detail for my sake as much as yours the next hour was spent with him trying to choke me to death and me trying to get away.. i did manage to get away somewhat he had my cell phone and called my mother to explain he was going to kill me.. the cops were called probably because i was beating on a random door yelling for help... anyway thats the horrible background story.. like I said I had a dream last night about him.. It wasnt the normal nightmare that Ive had in the years since it happened but it was one where he came back and was apologizing (which let me add that he doesnt even remember the incident!! drinking is very bad..blackout drinking is a nightmare) and asking me to help him with rehab and such.. anyway thats not really what this was suppose to be about. J-Lo told me that there is a new reality tv show about celebrity rehab.. ok seriously is it necessary.. how much help are these people going to get when they are performing for a camera!!! Yes I want them to get help but I dont want to watch it.. Ive seen what its like when they try to quit its not a fun process and if they are doing it for tv it wont work.. I love reality tv dont get me wrong but somethings we just dont need broadcast.... ok sorry for the soap box but it just erked me...

2 comments on Seriously is it Necessary!!

  • wickedwitchofthewest said 10 months ago
    Reality TV has taken a evil twist lately. There is also a new one comming out where the people are strapped into lie detectors and their family watches as they ask questions like "Do you love your wife?" Silly!!
  • mysecretidentity said 10 months ago
    I saw that!! How else do you want to ruin a relationship!! It is crazy but people agree to it!

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